It’s real fucking difficult reading Tyler sometimes. So fucking much that it gets annoying. He must be an Awful texted if he can actually hold onto a conversation only when we are talking face to face or on the phone. Which fucking blows.
I feel like I’m kinda changing too many things about me. I love eating fast food(knowing I shouldn’t eat so much and feeling horrible about myself because it’s so bad for me), I love hanging with Ben even though he thinks he is a bad influence on me, I like drinking with my friends, and smoking makes me really calm and helps me sleep. I do however like smoking weed because it’s a nice way to forget about things in stressing about and just chill out with my baby, and I like sex. So sue me. Even though he hates I drink and he would kill me if he knew I smoked, I don’t mind the things he has changed about me. But does he have to be so cold sometimes? I sometimes feel like I’m never gonna know if loves me. :/
But oh well. Better go to bed because I asked him to teach me how to long board… Yeah, yet another thing I’m willing to do to make him happy.
Last night was AMAZING!!
Got my time and a half at work, hung out at Tyler’s house with him, Ashley, and B. Then had dinner with his family and played in the pool, got COCK BLOCKED by Ashley TWICE!! Lmao. Went out for pizza in Crivitz with Tyler, Ashley, B, and Becca. Then Tyler and I finally got to make love after 3 weeks! Went over to Cory’s and smoked a bowl, set off some zipper fireworks and fell asleep in my baby’s arms ❤
- Little Red, Into the Woods